Turkey Plans

Thanksgivings Holidays has always been important to my family. This year seems to be more important than other years since my dad's death. It's as though the family is falling apart at the seams and this gathering may be the glue it needs to survive intact.

So goes the planning of how much food to prepare, extra snacks to lay out and where oh, where will everyone sleep! My daddy, Cajun birth had a philosophy about family and guests..." just add more water to the gumbo and take out some extra quilts from the closet." For Leven Theodore Miller there was always enough food and room for family, or a friend or a stranger out on their luck. Good natured and a huge heart for humanity of all kinds, it's almost poetic that he died of heart disease. His heart just couldn't hold anymore!

Now, we, (my brothers John, Mark,sister-in-law Angie and I) are called to lead the legacy he had reluctantly left behind. I truly hope we are up for the task. Reuniting a growing family is no easy feat. As to date we have 16 children, 13 grands (haven't counted Mark's yet) and we only have 4 children married as of yet. In twenty years...will be a reunion to behold, hope I'm there to officiate the fun.

I'm seriously thinking of returning home where life is a bit slower and I could surely be needed with my mom growing older and my siblings needing support Thu it all. Leaving yet another marriage in the dust has temporarily damaged my ego and left me feeling hallow. I recently heard that word used in a song and yes....lost leaves you feeling empty, liken to an hallowed out chocolate Easter bunny!
Does it imply sweet? Bittersweet maybe, as you strive to separate yourself from an unhappy present that leaves you with a frightening future. You're not whining as this is a choice, you're just aware that in front of you lies uncertainty and possibly certain final endings to all your aspirations for life in general. So, home and family who know you and love you anyway....in spite of yourself or because they know who you really are!