So the expected happened, my best friend goes back to his home country. As expected, I'm sad but happy for him to see his family and more important to find his daughter. Just knowing how much he loves her makes him more appealing and lovable to me. Family is so very important and my relationship to my own dad was very special.
As expected, I think of Duncan throughout the day...he kinda pops up with the connection to something we did together or he did or said or just that I connected him to. For example: I treated myself to coffee out (not a Starbucks which is his favorite) but we had gone to that particular store together.
Unexpected, is the sense being disconnected...a momentary loss of transmission. I have many choices of things to occupy my time but not motivation to move in any direction. So I chose to let the mini depression take it's hold...just for tonight! I've decided to write a reminder on my mirror...."Be sad tonight, tomorrow begins the work!" I must find a healthy way to honor our love for one another and fill the enormous void that I'm feeling.
the Queen says...til tomorrow
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