Eight Hours Ahead...

Now that I have someone special in my life...and now he's in another country...

and now due to the time that stands between his return to America there is the time difference when we can communicate! Math has never come quickly or easily for me. Hard work to convert abstract into concrete thoughts for the mostly visual learner, "that be me".

There I am on the balcony with a cup of coffee and a book...holding up fingers as I recite..

12 o'clock, 1 o'clock, 2 o'clock, 3 o'clock, 4 o'clock, 5 o'clock, 6 0'clock & 7 o'clock! Eight hours difference....so if it's 12:00 noon in Fort Worth, Texas ....it's really 7:00 pm in Johannesburg, South Africa...I think!

Shazbott! Even if I can arrange international calls...we have to synchronize well. And those IMS have a thought provoking idea...if he types something to me his time does that make it happening in the future? If I answer a question, hasn't it already happened as it's in the past...lol.

Time has always been my enemy for I have never learned to flow with it. I'm either unaware that time has passed...(in that special place where time slows only for you) or running after time...(trying to cram chores or duties into impossible time frames). I wear a big watch...BECAUSE I CAN'T SEE A WELL AS I USE TO...& I have to operate in the real time worshiping world. That clock on the wall, alarm at the bedside table, on my cell phone and around my wrist feels like a prison warden waiting for me to get out of line. Paranoid of the worst to happen....being late...not on time AGAIN...what will befall me?

We are a nation of time watchers. A culture of making deadlines. Mankind following schedules so we can keep the pace going. What would happen if we just didn't follow the schedule? For some it would be the lost of a job, opportunities, a plane ride, I dos at a wedding, a splendid meal, new friendship, a confutation from an errant customer, the list could go on or?

Can you get a rain check, a second chance or miss someone you should have missed in the first place? So time is ruthless and somewhat of a fickle mistress when it comes to perfection! Recently I experienced my all time reoccurring nightmare/day mare as a teacher of twenty years! I forgot to set my alarm and slept Thu my first class....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I got the call, I've been dreading forever...But I didn't die, or spent my entire day hanging my head in shame or lose my position...or my confidence! Karma has taught me that for every positive there is a negative...look for the good in everything and then it all makes perfect sense.

My good was NOW, I'm done with that awful fearful dream forever..."it happened and now I'm free from speculating". Will I take better care of setting my alarm? U bet ya! Now I just make it a routine and not a loaded action.

So what about the love interest in Faraway Land & time constraints? NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT! So what's the positive here? Maybe I need to accept what happens as it happens whenever it happens and celebrate each moment in itself. So much of my life has been spent on trying to make things happen or not happen or fix the bad things that did happen...whew! With all that rushing about you lose the ability to experience the little joys sent to you daily.

And in conclusion...breathing out...the Queen looks for the good in the moment of...